Becoming a transparent congruent person.
When I hide any
deep personal change in me from others, whom I want to be intimate with, it
opens a wound in my heart and also in the person’s heart that I love. (Because
I know intuitively when my partner makes love to another, I know somewhere in
my soul this has happened.) So then my body tells me, it’s time to tell the truth, but somehow I rationalize the
falseness I feel, and tell myself it will go away. Then the dis-ease in my
mind, body and soul can become worse and my body shouts to my mind, tell the truth. One of those truth’s is
me becoming a man who loves intimacy, that includes consensual sex with another
(but I did not tell my primary partner). This secret has hurt my partner and I
am truly sorry.
This action undoes
trust in self and from those who love you. So now I face the truth and learn a
much harder lesson. My wife is choosing to leave me. I have brought this upon
myself and I take full responsibility for this. I want to learn warrior love
that is honest right from the beginning and not hide that I am a natural
polyamorous man.
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